P.S. Frenchie's lesson reminded me of a column I penned for the U Matuna on the eve of Francis' election: THE STRANGE TRIAL OF THE GOOD LOOKING POPE Perhaps a bit of history will buck you up a bit.
And if you don't have the book TRIUMPH: THE POWER AND THE GLORY OF THE CATHOLIC CHURCH, then no wonder you despair. Get it. Read it. Know your history.