Both Chuck White and I - since we are very visible in this war - have received lots of mail from many people around the world who have been severely and deeply wounded by their experience in the NCW, especially once they choose to leave.
Their description of it reminds me of "Neo's" escape from The Matrix. (Is the name "Neo" coincidental?)
One particular person has shared with us the most intense emotional suffering and deep struggle of her break with The (NCW) Matrix to swim back to the surface of some sense of reality in her life. If the normal members experience such hardship in attempting to escape The Matrix that is the NCW, how much more those who are "groomed" for "presbyter-hood."
In the movie, The Matrix, a simulated reality is created by sentient machines to subdue the human population, while their bodies' heat and electrical activity are used as an energy source.
In the horror "film" that is "The NCW Matrix", a simulated reality is created by the Arguello-Gennarini machine to subdue a human population, while their bodies are used as capital to trade for power amongst the fallen princes of the Church (thus their lust for numbers).
The OJ affair is classic. I've known him since about 2004. No doubt he was sincere, and may even have become a good priest in a real seminary. But there was no intention of helping him to become a real priest. The only intention in the NCW is the machine production of numbers (and in our case, playmates for Tony), and guys like OJ are feted and fanned into thinking that they are superhuman so that they will be all the more pliable to the will of the Arguello-Gennarini Matrix that manufactures and uses them to grease the cogs of their power-broking machine.
Escape from The Matrix OJ. Seriously. "Trinity" will help you. But you first have to believe.